“I’m sorry Michael, I really am, lets just get the soap off, dry off an go to Admin and the nurse, we still need those medical slips for missing class an all. Then we will get yur stuff an get yah moved. “

She showed good sense then…well except I would have turned in sable. But that wuz for her to do not me. Last year I would have gone behind her back an done it. now, well she wuz an adult no different than I. She could make the decision she needed to an I would make mine.

I limped, the muscles of me leg complaining an put me self under one of the warm showers as it sputtered water down me back an front. I closed me eyes, an still couldn’t enjoy the fine spray. Right then I felt naked an used. The soap slipped about me body as I tried to get clean, once more.

I wuz a bit worried about the teaching sable control part. I wuzn’t sure I should be the one doing it. after all being all made at the person all trussed up did not bode well. Still if sum body wuz there to make sure I didn’t lose it. Well it might work.

“Michael, I’m really sorry it turned out like this. I still promise yah a good massage….an if yur up to it I could use one on me leg at the very least. I’ll show yah first by doing yur leg…. I think I pulled a muscle or two.”

I grinned at her, the smile growing on me face as the water ran down me body, “but, the next time I start carrying yah around like that I’m gonna be on a better ground. We will have to use the tub next time.” Yeah I wuz making a promise, but it wuz one I could keep. One I wanted to keep.

“need any help or you good?”

"It would be more painful for her if I just tell everyone I meet... make it so no one in school trusts her... It was what got her to stop the first time... I made an empty threat... this time, I may do as I say... You're going to have to do a lot to get me to trust you again Sable... and I mean A LOT..."

I walked under a seperate shower head sighing gently tears flowing hidden by water. I was glad neither of the other two could see auras like I could... I wanted to trust sable but, I knew I couldn't not until she had proven herself trustworthy. When the soap had reached the ground I walked to sable sighing slightly offering a soft kiss to her forehead before whispering.

"I hope one day I can trust you again... I really do Sable..."

I walked to Cassie now smiling to her.

"I'd love to take your offer Cassie and, I know a little about massage I'm sure I can get your leg without much help."

Sable was enjoying her self as she licked her finger and had that sly grin on her face until she found out what Micheal had said to her as she smirk "sorry couldn't help it..." she says before frowning as she found out she was moving before Sable could say anything Micheal kissed her forehead said those words to her Sable didn't frown didn't cry or anything like that she knew this was coming she didn't mind being a alone then again with what happen to her both here and in her dorm room she might be thinking otherwise

"so I guess that was last chance then..."

"No Sable... it isn't..."

I offered the words from my heart the same place the words I spoke to Cassie came from. I didn't know if it was right to have the same feelings for two girls but, there it was still even after a second loss of her control I couldn't help but want her to love me as much as Cassie did. I just wanted her to be able to control herself better.

"I'm a very forgiving person Sable, My mother; my entire family are theives always have been my father's bloodline is a bunch of soft hearted people forgiving those they care for infinite numbers of times. If I couldn't forgive anything no one could... I'll be moving just for the time being Sable Perhaps or perhaps not permanently; one day in an ideal world we'd all be able to have one of the medium sized rooms together. Though that's a long way off even if cassie would warm up to the idea. Sable believe me... if that had been a last chance I wouldn't have kissed you like that... or at all."

Holding out her large soft towel I spun it round Micheal while she finished her words, me own wrapped round me body. A good feeling that. There wuz still a great deal of angst in me when it came to being naked in front of other people an all. This…this has seemed different. There wuz sum thing we shared, but now, now I felt like Sable only wanted to leer, to watch me with her own lil agenda ‘bout what she could do to me. It made for a bad situation in a public shower.

“Thanks, really” I needed to move on, to not really talk much ‘bout what had happened. It seemed to me there were more important matters to attend. An I really wanted to get outta the gym…this place with its creppy nightmares an bad girls. I offered Michael a hug, the towels separating us, loving, platonoic me hand upon her hot cheeks. There wuz a redness to her eyes, the type of redness yah get from crying. The hug stayed as I looked back into her those green orbs.

“I’m sorry that didn’t work out at all how you had wanted…an it didn’t turn out much like I thought it would either. But it will be OK. Life has a way of throwing yah a few curves, yah take one or tow on the chin at times. But good things come of it. Every time. Its hard I know, but every cloud has a silver lining. Some people learn to find um…others always find the grey. To tell yah the truth I’m glad of the nightmare now…cause at least it brought me close to you.” I gave the blond mane a tousle sending water droplets cascading across the bare floor of the locker room, and then leaned forward an kissed her cheek…tasting the salt of her tears. Then lingering…moving the short distance to her lips. A short kiss full of promises. A kiss that said I would like to get to know her even now…..A kiss of sum body more than jus a friend…. A lover.

Zipping an tucking I got the sports bra back on, an the pulled me shorts up, having to wiggle um up over me wet thighs as they stuck a bit. But Id not wanted to spend any more time her than I had to. The place held a bad memory now…an a good one. … an this is when I saw the paper.

Yellow, with a symbol from me dream…the bile rose on me throat. As I carefully folded it up an tucked it in me waistband. A feeling of dread passing o’er me. I could not let Michael see it…could not let her voice the fear an terror all o’er. Maybe I should have, but I couldn’t. couldn’t do that to a girl that had been through so much. Socks…shoes….me wet hair leaving the bra an the back of me shorts a sodden mass in no time. Good thing they were built for a lil rain. I looked at Michael…watching her…an enjoying the moment.

“I’m ready when you are” the locker door smacking shut with a definitive bang. A new chapter had begun in me life an a fairly bubbled in happiness.

I simply nodded to Cassie as I finished cleaning my legs before letting the soap was away and leaving the water turning off the shower I had been using before gathering my wet towel and undergarments from the shower floor. I had another set in my locker. I walked to it eying sable and vaguely offering a smile before I'd finish moving to my locker gathering towel and clothing begining to dry myself though I didnt do it for too long. I'd pull on my boy short style boxer briefs onto my hips; tight around my curves as well as a bra, of course I hadn't needed one but still It gave me comfort. A knee length skirt and a simple t-shirt and simple sneakers with simple ankle socks.

Turning from locker to Cassie I saw that she was hiding something though what I couldn't be sure I didn't bring it up instead I took a seat on the bench between the two sides of lockers taking a breather to ease my mind further.

"Would you have made love to me if Sable hadn't touched us? Would you really have done that so readily in a public place with someone like me Cassie?"

I wanted to know if she'd been prepared to do that with me had I asked, if she'd have shed her modesty to do that for me.

“Yes…I wuz along way down that path…down an even more difficult path than that, I ‘d been prepared to share you, to love you on whatever conditions you gave an be thankful you are in me life. An that I still am. Easier to have made love in that room than to know you might go out with another an love them. Far easier. I still want to hold your naked body against mine as it rests in the afterglow of fulfilled passion.”

A large smile, happy an earnest me one hand reaching out to hers, one had clutching the yellow scrap of paper an on the way out discarding it into the refuse bin. I walked…or limped…but not much. I would heal, a few days of rest an recovery. An frankly if a spent hours in the bath with this bundle of joy well…that much the merrier.

“for now I will be happy knowing you are safe… an I hope happy. I am, though I donlt wanna feel like sum sick conquering hero. I here enough of that from other girls about their previous boyfriends. Sum times I swear there are girls that do the same. I don’t wanna conquer anything or put a notch in me bed post. I want a nice friendly relationship were you can talk ‘bout jus any old thing an have fun. An one that yes does involve sharing intimacies with one another. It feels a lil kinky being with others at the same time. But if Sable shapes up an you want her back, I will cross that bridge when it happens. I’m not saying I can….I will worry ‘bout it then.

Papers got signed…stuff got done…an the computers moved digits an lives like mere commodities to be traded. But then, it wuz all we wuz doing. A few transactions that went might smooth given the problems I had with this place on me uniforms. For that nothing budged.

One piece of plastic…a new code…a few new Zeros an ones an the lady wuz kind enough to hand Michael back her student ID…sans swip card for her new room….and the suite.

“I’ll warn yah now Michael, when Hanaji dragged me down her an got me the room I wuz amazed at what kinda room it wuz. I don’t now to this day how she managed it. but yah go through our front door…an kitchenette, little sofa…Flat screen…the shared bathroom an…two spate bedrooms each with its own lock an closet an stuff. I thought all the stuff wuz Hanja’s, but when they boxed up everything they left all the items in the main part of the place. I mean its like the Ritz Carleton of shokushu. I’m always afraid they are gonna move me back into some pea sized shared rectangle like I had when I first got here…. I think you ‘ll love it. an yur always welcome in me room…no question. Fact is the I jus propped the door open no how. “

“I reckon we shold get an excused absence of the day…see the nurse an tell her ‘bout the nightmare. I’ve heard others say it works….”

She'd been ready... ready to share me?! I was really already that important to her?! I could see she hadn't been lying. every word she spoke was true. It boggled the mind that it would mean so much to cassie for me just to be a part of her life. I was blushing the entire time it took to switch my dorm assignment. though through that time I wondered in my mind and heart if I was doing the right thing. Damn hearts, damn them to burn in hell when they do things like this to people.

Then cassie began to explain how the room was set up and I just smiled with a gentle nod.

"My old room wasn't too bad, asmall kitchen and sink, walk in closet that led to a tub, might have only had one bedroom no shower & the kitchen might have been attached to a small living room of some sort but, it was still surprisingly nice... yours sounds better though."

I told her plling my usual crook from my back to help me walk with her. My legs and body quite sore oddly now out of the water, though my legs always held a bit of a limp from breaking them.

"Thank you so much though Cassie, it means a lot to me."
What meant a lot to me though wasn't her offer to let me stay in her dorm, it was simply the offer to be shared; that she truly been willing to share me.

“Well, it really ain’t nothing an all.” Shortening me stride to make if a bit more comfortable for micheal to walk beside me. It felt good once ‘gain to have sum one at me side…really good. I caught her…or maybe it wuz me stealing a glace occasionally as we left the Admin center.

“Yah got a much better deal than me then that first time. I had this closet that I shared with me first roomie. After she got done moving all her art stuff in like even the isle tween the beds wuz all like cluttered with trinkets an what not’s”. . The memories of that time brought the thought I had no house warming gift for Michael, not at least I’d bought. I’d been so busy lamenting the past that I’d forgotten to plan for the future, let alone even think about the day what wuz happening would happen. I reached out me hand, to take hers. An offering.

How I wanted to skip, hand in hand down the school corridor an out the door into this new world. Make a fool of me self perhaps, but it really wouldn’t matter cause there’d be two of us. Two of us hand in hand making fools of ourselves. Wuz this not the best day ever?

“I do so look forwards to this…Mi Casa es sue Casa…sum thing like that at any rate. I keep me door open jus cause well, I like sum one around, like to feel their presence an…” I swear I didn’t understand why I blushed, well maybe I did, “I sleep better with an arm round me. Rarely do I get on eof them nightmares when it is like that, an when I do they ain’t so vivid as when I’m alone. I jus, well feel safer. Soooo I guess what I’m saying is yur welcome in me bed, clothed or what not…but…its really silly thing to be worried o’er an all…I mean I like, sleep without nothing on…jus the sheet. Ever since the collar got round me neck one day I ain’t woken without being naked like. Seems it eats me night clothes an frankly I got none no more, well not the regular type at any rate.”

Oh lord, I wuz sounding like a mad woman. I’ll bet she wuz having second thoughts already…I’d best be quite an not even mention that I heard voices in me head. Well not so much voice but impulse…an an occasional laugh. Mostly when I wuz horny an all, an sex wuz on me mind…no best not talk to that an seem really crazy. I wuz making the fool of me self all on me own….

“lets get to the nurse an get our sick slips an all. Report what we felt so they can document it an stuff. At least this time I ain’t waking up all naked on a floor without no memory at’all of the time that’s gone by”

The trip to the nurse didn't take too long though I have to admit my usual problems were documented by the school making it easier to get the note for myself rather than for Cassie.

"No more night clothes? You have a collar? Well I can make you some new night clothes that's no problem at all."

Alright so she seemed a tad... insane, but who wasn't in this world? I mean even I was a little insane I saw things that weren't there after all. i thought deeply as we walked from the nurse's office to our new dorm; I had decided I'd get my stuff from sable's room later; though I care for the girl I just had no desire to see her right now after her antics today.

"So Cassie, where wouldja be taking me to start this day of relaxation?"

I asked placing an arm around her waist with my usual day to day smile on my face; I'd have slung my arm over her shoulder but... she was a bit tall compared to me for that.

((forgive me for the lack of detail today but, I'm back))

Like nurses have to ask questions. An some of um had me squirming right then an thar in me seat as they were a bit unsettling. But what wuz a few minutes or more if the day wuz gonna be spent with a wonderful new friend.

Somehow she hadn’t been scared off by all me blathering on ‘bout all the kinks in me psyche. I reckon god wuz looking out for me jus like he said he would. Lord knew I needed someone to jus hold me at night an help the nightmares stay away. It had been a rough month or so, all alone. The worst wuz o’er though, an things wuz looking right on up.

“That’d be swell, but don’t fret yur hands at’all, won’t do no good. I guess I’ve gotten used to them coming an a going. The biggest thing yah could ever do for me is jus hold me at night, especially when them nightmares come. It really helps me sleep. But if that is too uncomfortable, knowing sum body is in the other room will help a lot I’m sure.

Me heart skipped a beat as her arm went round me waist an we started from the nurses office. A wonderful joy spreading form where her hip hit me thigh, an her fingers curled round me waist. I’d not felt like this in a while…a good long while by me counting time. That giddy sort of feeling yah get when things is going really well an all. The one reserved for other people in yur life, special people. I could still smell her hair and the shampoo…hopefully for a long time to come.

“Depends, yah want to get yur stuff, or do you want to get comfee, get a nice massage an if I can predict the future fall asleep shortly thereafter if not during. I promise not tah bite…..” I let me arm drap o’er her shoulders an put me other hand on her hand at me waist. The grin spread as the thought did too. Glancing down at her, not sure what to think when it came to what she would want to do. But anything wuz fine with me. Anything at’all.

“unless yah do it first. Then the gloves come off an yur ribs are fair game. “ I winked. Laughter wuz good for the soul, an I felt far better now.

"Well If I'm going to be holding you at night, you're going to need at least some night clothes."

I told her as we continued our walk towards 'home'. For the moment my mind wasn't quite on what we were going to do instead it was on what I had said to Sable, though the thoughts eventually passed; she'd deserved what I'd done... right?

"Mmm, a massage sounds heavenly... though fall asleep? Doubt it, I'm not the sort to pass out when I feel good!"

I exclaimed with a bit of a wink myself. I felt different than I normally did but, I assumed this was a good thing. it couldn't have been bad with how much I enjoyed it.

"As long as you don't stray get greedy in your touch I mean. I wouldn't want to seem like some hussy whom sleeps with a girl on the first date."

“Ok, long T an panties, nothing fancy jus down right sensible an all. I don’t mind a bit, ‘bout time I got back to me senses. “ it seemed we were headed towards me room, up a flight of stairs…then another round…her hip bumping me leg in the most pleasant sort of way. I let me hand play in the silky hair, feeling it slide o’er me fingers like water from a falls.

Oh I laughed….a fun sort of happy laugh that echoed of the hallway.

“That is my line…I’m really not that kind of girl either….an the shower…I don’t know what got into me an all, but public showers with people able to watch an like getting all close an touchy. “ I got real quite an whispered close to her ear.

“I still feel that way, go through hell for yah I reckon even if it don’t make much sense yet. Does life work like this, someone yah jus met an suddenly yah thinking ‘bout a lifetime, an doing things that, well….only a hussy would do? ”

I swear me heart beat faster as the door hove into view. I couldn’t really believe how lucky I wuz. She wuzn’t interested in jus a one night stand. She …well…she seemed so much more, so mature an feeling her way through the same things I wuz. Uncanny it felt as the door swung open with a click, me ID card now free of the plate.

“Me casa es su casa, welcome to me humble lil ole abode, what is mine is yurs an all. “ Could this really be true?

I just smiled as the door swung open; it was quite nice. I stretched slightly offering a simple nod to my new 'friend' I wasn't ready to call her a girlfriend or lover or anything like that, I wasn't sure about that actually.

"I don't know if that's what life is like but, I guess it happens... Little thing that make life so much more magical don't you think?"

I looked about until I saw a picture of a young woman standing next to cassie. I looked at it for a good few minutes.

"This is her?"

I asked staring at the picture for a time after I asked hoping the image wouldn't hurt Cassie too much emotionally. didn't want to make her cry afterall. We'd already had enough pain to deal with today.

Life wuz magical. An this moment wuz as well, stepping cross the threshold. A new day, a new year in a manner of speaking. Watching as her head turned an took in the small anterior room, the door open to me own. Her steps forward, not like she wuz sweeping in to take o’er, but not hesitant as well.

Going past me door, until she stood before the lil ole picute on the wall. Me an hanaji, Hanji in her white lace, the lacy collar bout her throat, me in black leather, the same leather collar I now wore ‘bout me throat. A shoulder shot for her….much more for me. I hoped Michael didn’t get unnerved at the similarities in their height, though Hanaji had been far broader of shoulder, took pride in that.

The picture had been at our wedding, an event I should know like the back of me hand…but didn’t. that hurt. Gaps of time surrounded the whole thing. For the life of me I couldn’t even member who married us, jus the slipping on of a ring along her strong finger. I could feel me eyes water. So much gone…so much of the future had seemed wretched from me very beginning.

“Yes, … magical. Ahhh yes, that’s Hanaji” an suddenly It felt like the room spun an me feet didn’t wanna stay under me. The bed bounced as me bum hit it. I held me head, a tear down me cheek.

“Sorry….not yur fault. Jus….lots of memeories crashing in all at once. Wheewww, like ignore me for a moment an well….jus…it’ll go.” I twisted the ring round me finger. The ring that showed our love for one another. Slowly I pulled it off. An breathed deep. Another tear running down me cheek following the wet track of the first.

“I’d not thought it would be this hard…but…time to let go….she’s gone, stuff all cleaned out by the school. Don’t want yah to think yur jus a rebounder. Hanaji an I started in kinda the same way. Maybe that is how it works for me, god jus sort of puts people in me path when I need them an they need me. I tell yah what, the ring should have come off long ago…an…while I’ll never get rid of it kinda like the memories a her….it don’t need to stay on me finger. “

Carefully I threaded the chain for me crucifix through the ring, letting it slide down till it caught on the arms of the cross. The lord would help me bear her passing. Kinda symbolic….an frankly it made me mushy all inside thinking ‘bout it. A magic all its own.