"That's the problem though I really don't want to think badly of you; you seem like a good person mostly I mean... ugh I don't even know what I mean all of this and the lack of sleep is running my mind ragged!"

She said hands over her face not being able to think straight wasn't assisting the current situation in anyway. She wanted to forget or someone to help her cope either way would have been fine.

"Ummm... Kari? That was at least a week ago... lost track of time sleeping only an hour a night but, it might have been longer..."

She stuttered in her speech making it more obvious how out of things this had made her even if they hadn't met before right now. thought after Kari's next statement Darwin would just stare at the childish smile.

"Sorry I just can't quite understand that like I said all my experience is the tentacles & they just make me want to avoid it all together... than again I've also become a bit paranoid lately too... well moreso at least."

Lover... hmph...

She paused after Kari's next question thinking the best way to answer. indeed part of it was comfort and habit, another part of it was just looking the way she did in them. not that she didn't enjoy sleeping in women's clothes. then finally a memory... one she hated now.

"Why... Because no one bothers accepting a date from a guy just to make a perverted film about them... at least that was the original reason I started... now I've just grown used to it."

"I know some girls that would..." The idea, though, of perverted films made me shiver. The orgy was one thing, that was a happy time for me, but my brother's home movies were a different story... I just hoped they were all destroyed.

"Ugh... It hurt so much learning about that video."

She shook her head shifting position wanting partially to just go back to her room and change but, decided to stay dressed the way she was for the moment unless another couple girls showed up, then she'd have a subconscious need to change clothes.

Darwin just smiled vaguely as it were she was still on the line between complete breakdown & calm recovery it would be easy to tip either way unfortunately. She'd nod seeing that sort of connection as very nice nearly her view of the only possible real love... if they hadn't been in an orgy a week or two ago it would have been even nicer for her to hear.

"That's a good sort of connection to have with people... almost makes me believe in true love again you know."

She again began to lose balance towards the breaking point the realization that absolutely no one came to mind that would do that for her was depressing even further than her friend's lack of control.

"Well... none that I can name off the top of my head... hell my number of friends i can count on one hand..."

she held up four fingers taking a bit of a moment to wipe away a tear that had forced it's way out She didn't make many friends here most of the people seemed too different from herself or too much like sluts plus she didn't seem to have much time to do so, each time she tried a monster would attack just before they could get a good conversation going.

I blushed at Kari's acts. I know she was with Violett, but I'd be lying if I said my heart didn't leap into my throat just then. I said nothing, for fear of looking like an idiot if I opened my mouth and no words came out.

I ran over immediately upon seeing the tears. Taking Kari's hand in mine, I looked intensely at her a moment, "What is it? These 'monster' things you talk about?" I hadn't met them yet, but they were sure talked about a lit, and seemed to upset a lot of the girls.